Metal Shock

I’ve never been too interested in liquid forms of eyeshadow as I find powder to be the easiest to work with. However, Essence has come out with a few new eye-catching tubes of liquid metals called Metal Shock and – as always – the sparkle was too strong to resist.

I used to have a similar product from Kiko which I had bought years ago, but never quite knew how to wear it. There weren’t as many creative ways to use sparkle on a daily basis as there are today. With modern techniques, I find this liquid eyeshadow quite versatile, so I’ve come up with three ways to wear it.

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Starting over

Profilna

So it’s been quite a while since my last post.

Life flows in mysterious ways. I left this blog with no explanation – but it was not an intentional move.

In short, I suddenly fell seriously ill and couldn’t continue writing any longer. It was difficult to just let it all fade away – especially since it had taken me about 5 years to even gather enough courage to start the blog in the first place. But there was nothing to be done as my health was just that bad. I have a hard time talking about it because visually, there appears to be nothing wrong with me and a lot of people just won’t understand. But it’s currently a big struggle for me to get through the days. Without going into too much detail, it all started with a strange infection I got while working at a hair salon; it caused a multitude of unusual symptoms and left me severely tired to this day. I’m still not okay, and it’s taken a huge toll on my (already fragile) mental health as well. There have been days and even weeks when I literally could not get out of bed, so I have to be very careful what I do with the energy that I do have. Makeup, unfortunately, hasn’t been on the menu very often because of that.

It’s an especially hard-to-deal-with situation because being creative was a big part of my personality, and by not being able to do anything but stare into the wall for days on end, I started losing myself. Not knowing who you are and only identifying with your illness is something I don’t wish upon anyone.

A lof of people have told me they miss my blog, which is very bitter-sweet to hear. But I started taking new meds recently which seem to be working somewhat, meaning I at least have enough energy to stay awake during the day. It’s not perfect as I still have to suffer through near daily headaches and other localized pains, but it’s the best I’m capable of functioning at the moment and that has to be enough for now. I started feeling better in makeup as well – I had honestly felt too ugly to put anything on even when I had enough motivation to do so.

I have been thinking of starting to blog again – but without any added pressure of the number of posts I’m supposed to put out in a week. I’d like to post occasionally to keep my mind busy, and to stop fearing the process. If I can come up with something I will, otherwise I won’t. I won’t beat myself up if I’m not able to post anything for a month. I need to see this as a relaxing hobby, and as a way to find myself again.

People have also told me I should perhaps consider writing about other topics alongside makeup, because they like my relatable Facebook posts. I have been thinking about it, but I’m not sure how to implement that here as my FB mostly consists of critique of social constructs, personal awareness, and other philosophical topics. I’ll have to decide if I want to keep it together or make a separate blog. Any ideas are welcome.

Finally, I’d like to thank anyone who still follows me – I was surprised my blog still had hits when I came back.

Thank you for reading! 😊

Deborah Perfect Smokey Eye Palette

I’ve been so busy for the past week, I didn’t have time to do any creative looks (I didn’t even feel like wearing makeup most days to be honest). Seriously, how do people with full time jobs manage to put out new blog content so regularly? 

I had a 25% off coupon for a local drugstore, so I decided to browse the shelves a bit. I didn’t really need anything – well, at least not until I saw this enchanting palette on the Deborah stand.

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