Metal Shock

I’ve never been too interested in liquid forms of eyeshadow as I find powder to be the easiest to work with. However, Essence has come out with a few new eye-catching tubes of liquid metals called Metal Shock and – as always – the sparkle was too strong to resist.

I used to have a similar product from Kiko which I had bought years ago, but never quite knew how to wear it. There weren’t as many creative ways to use sparkle on a daily basis as there are today. With modern techniques, I find this liquid eyeshadow quite versatile, so I’ve come up with three ways to wear it.

IMG_8765

Read More »

Advertisements

Starting over

Profilna

So it’s been quite a while since my last post.

Life flows in mysterious ways. I left this blog with no explanation – but it was not an intentional move.

In short, I suddenly fell seriously ill and couldn’t continue writing any longer. It was difficult to just let it all fade away – especially since it had taken me about 5 years to even gather enough courage to start the blog in the first place. But there was nothing to be done as my health was just that bad. I have a hard time talking about it because visually, there appears to be nothing wrong with me and a lot of people just won’t understand. But it’s currently a big struggle for me to get through the days. Without going into too much detail, it all started with a strange infection I got while working at a hair salon; it caused a multitude of unusual symptoms and left me severely tired to this day. I’m still not okay, and it’s taken a huge toll on my (already fragile) mental health as well. There have been days and even weeks when I literally could not get out of bed, so I have to be very careful what I do with the energy that I do have. Makeup, unfortunately, hasn’t been on the menu very often because of that.

It’s an especially hard-to-deal-with situation because being creative was a big part of my personality, and by not being able to do anything but stare into the wall for days on end, I started losing myself. Not knowing who you are and only identifying with your illness is something I don’t wish upon anyone.

A lof of people have told me they miss my blog, which is very bitter-sweet to hear. But I started taking new meds recently which seem to be working somewhat, meaning I at least have enough energy to stay awake during the day. It’s not perfect as I still have to suffer through near daily headaches and other localized pains, but it’s the best I’m capable of functioning at the moment and that has to be enough for now. I started feeling better in makeup as well – I had honestly felt too ugly to put anything on even when I had enough motivation to do so.

I have been thinking of starting to blog again – but without any added pressure of the number of posts I’m supposed to put out in a week. I’d like to post occasionally to keep my mind busy, and to stop fearing the process. If I can come up with something I will, otherwise I won’t.¬†I won’t beat myself up if I’m not able to post anything for a month. I need to see this as a relaxing hobby, and as a way to find myself again.

People have also told me I should perhaps consider writing about other topics alongside makeup, because they like my relatable Facebook posts. I have been thinking about it, but I’m not sure how to implement that here as my FB mostly consists of critique of social constructs, personal awareness, and other philosophical topics. I’ll have to decide if I want to keep it together or make a separate blog. Any ideas are welcome.

Finally, I’d like to thank anyone who still follows me – I was surprised my blog still had hits when I came back.

Thank you for reading! ūüėä

HAPPY NEW YEAR

First I must say a few words regarding my absence in December, it was such a busy month and left me with no time for makeup. I finally have a proper day off today, so I have to make the most of it and spend it creatively.

I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year’s Eve. I dressed up, but then didn’t feel like going anywhere, so I ended up spending the last day of the year watching fireworks alone from my bed. Which actually suited me perfectly. I had a chance to think about my life and how much I’ve changed for the better. ūüôā

As I loved my outfit that day, I decided to take it as inspiration for some eye and lip art to start the year with.

IMG_6763

Read More »

Deborah Perfect Smokey Eye Palette

I’ve been so busy for the past week, I didn’t have time to do any creative looks (I didn’t even feel like wearing makeup most days to be honest). Seriously, how do people with full time jobs manage to put out new blog content so regularly?¬†

I had a 25% off coupon for a local drugstore, so I decided to browse the shelves a bit. I didn’t really¬†need anything – well, at least not until I saw this enchanting palette on the Deborah stand.

IMG_6275

Read More »

Picking Peonies

Not that you could tell what my hair was like before as I always wore wigs, but today’s post is inspired by my new hair colour. Here’s the story: about a month ago I went to the hairdresser’s after 10 years because I needed a bigger change in life and¬†naturally, my¬†hair was the first to volunteer.¬†I wanted to be a blonde to get a break from the medium brown I’d had for over a year.¬†BUT … It didn’t work. It should have been an easy job since I even stopped dyeing it about six months ago. I have no idea what happened, but the hairdresser really messed¬†up. We’d talked about doing a balayage with a seamless transition from a dark blonde at the roots to lighter ends, but the end result was just … Let’s just say I could have done a better job myself with my eyes closed.
I couldn’t stand looking at it anymore, so last week I threw on a bright magenta as a temporary solution. It bleeds everywhere so I’m still not entirely happy *sigh* but I do love the actual colour. I¬†thought it would be a fun idea to¬†emphasize it with matching makeup using red and pink eyeshadow – something I never wore before, but today¬†I’ve definitely realized I need to use more often.

FB pink 2_2

Read More »